so in love....

I went to the most amazing place yesterday. I was with a mesmerizing face. Everything really was pure bliss.All my senses engaged and a full heart. At least for this one day in my time where nothing could take the feeling away, there were moments my heart would leap out of chest, moments where I would laugh out loud completely unaware of anyone except the face I was watching.I am so in LOVE with watching the faces of my precious full of life gifts. As I write now the feeling puts a smile on my face and a lump in my throat at the same time.
I took Tristan, Bodie and Carter to the beach yesterday.
Tristan and the body board have connected. He is not afraid of the waves, he goes farther out than I would like but as I watch I see he has it under control, I won't take that away. He catches the waves and comes in sometimes right next to my feet and gives me a thumbs up.His face is lovely as he is watching,waiting and completely excited when he gets a ride in. I could watch for hours and feel as if it were a minute.

Bodie unsure and a little afraid but none the less excited. He runs from the waves,laughing out loud each time.And each time going a little farther out until he lets the waves hit him and he has become brave. Fear overcomes his face for a split second when a wave takes him down, I am right there I feel the fear too.He gets up himself without my assistance and is back for more! 

Carter asks me Mom why is the beach so so big. It goes all the way over there for EVER. and over there.

The water is cold,but the waves are calling so with my hand he tiptoes out.

The water hits his toes, he laughs and runs back. Soon he is over holding my hand and is going further than I like. I watch intensely a bit worried but not to worried.

He is cautious and I am close.The first time he fell,  he told me Mom you shouldn't have brought me here, I don't like the beach.

That was forgotton quickly and he became increasing more precise with his balance.

The ocean was powerful and inviting.With caution the boys all confronted their fear of the marvelous and vast body of water and they all grew exhilaratingly stronger and more confident with themselves and to watch that unfold in their eyes, before my eyes is a fulfillment that I know is a gift God allowing me to experience. I could not be more in Love.And I know he loves me,

God loves me because he gave me these children who are enchanting,whimsical and mine to enjoy. At times I think they are tireless, but tonight their precious heads hit the pillow and they did not make a peep.I was tired to but I did not want to sleep, I felt bliss from this day and did not want that feeling of my real life fantasy to leave. Thank You Jesus for my babies I am so excited for them and for me.