Jam Packed Action,fulfilling Whims and Missing out.

My Journal entry
Well here I am again,it seems like it has been such a long time sense I have been here. Sense I have been stopped and seeking only you. NOT you to HELP me through a situation but you and me BEING the situation.
AS usual my mind is wandering and feeling the pressure of JPA. That stands for Jam Packed Action a phrase I started using years ago to express what kind of day we are in for. I used to be excited about it and tried to get my kids excited to. Who doesn't love JAM PACKED ACTION? (kids don't love it especially after naptime, pharmaceutical companies do though. )
In my time with you, I feel as if I am stealing time from all the THINGS I "HAVE" to do.BUT realistically I have that backwards.
BACKWARDS without a doubt I am stealing time from us. I am robbing myself and I think I am doing important things. How much more would the things I do be DEEMED as IMPORTANT if I wasn't so backwards.
What is important , my seeking to fulfill my whims of the day? A clean house? Fulfilling other PEOPLE'S expectations of me?
Do I choose you or Jam packed Action?? I desire to choose you, I know to choose you is the right thing and YET it's yet another JPA day.
God you know what I want and you know what I need. Please , Please settle my whims and the things that get in the way of being fulfilled in your presence. I want my whims to benefit your Kingdom and YOUR plans. I am tired of wasting time.I want my JPA to be ALL about YOU not me.